An Eternal Perspective
Sometimes things don’t work out the way you think, or want.
For the longest time I’ve held onto this vision. I’ve put a lot of thought into
it, imagining the day, the feeling, what we would eat, who would be there.
Everything! Graduating college with my husband. Since we first got married I
have fantasized about our graduation day. I wanted that perfect picture together,
graduation gowns, standing side by side. It is such a huge accomplishment that
we would be able to share together. When we found out that we were expecting,
this vision that I was hanging onto just brightened. We would be able to share
the moment with our daughter! She would be a part of this momentous occasion!
However as I started taking a closer look at the classes I needed to take along
with the demands of taking care of our sweet girl, I realized that this dream
of mine would not be realistic. I was crushed. I didn’t realize how much this
effected me until talking about it with Spencer during breakfast. Over oatmeal
I told him my concerns about not being able to take the classes originally
planned. Lovingly he reassured me that it would be ok, and I could take online
classes at my own pace. I already knew this, but just hearing it spoken out
loud pulled at my heart. “But it was my dream.. it was my dream.” Was all I
could say before the tears started! I knew that I was going to graduate
college, and I was excited to be a mom. But I’ve had to accept that while I can
have both, it may not be on my time frame. I’ve had to take a step back and
look at the situation with eternal perspective. It really doesn’t matter that
Spencer and I wont be able to graduate together. I know that I will graduate
and that my main focus for now needs to be the coming of our little angel.
This scripture and
Mormon Message from Elder Holland really touched me. The Lord is taking care of me and knows what is best. Everything will be work out.
Joushua 1:9 "Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest."
A little message from my husband. I love this picture of our family
Spencer drew, I love his humor and support. Life is good :)